All is well with them. I explained what I've already mentioned-- that I didn't want to feel that they thought if I just would have done this or not done that he would have stayed. And his mom assured me she didn't think that. And that she told WH that even though they would walk him through this crisis, they did not support him. So I'm grateful for them.
I also told them I didn't want to talk about WH ever again except to hear that he died. I don't really mean that, but I know it's best, and I'm glad I said it.
Now to more confusing things, all of which came through them. (I listened to all this before I said I didn't want to hear any more, hee hee!)
He said that he thinks I left him.
!!!
How's this for "don't believe a word they say"? He said that he thought he was just expressing to me what he wanted us to work on and that I just up and left. Hell to the no!
He also said that he was soooo mad that I broke his privacy when I told everyone about our separation. It was a secret for a good two and a half weeks because I thought he would come to his senses. But then when I heard about him making out with his coworker, I notified my family and his and our close friends. So I broke his trust.
Huh????
Just goes to show "don't believe what they say." And that he has some bad projection.
Anyway.
The hard work is ahead. Letting go. . . preparing for the reality of single motherhood. . . his parents are going to try to push him to ask me questions about check ups and stuff. I said it's easier if he doesn't for me to get over him. But I do want him to be a part of the baby's life. . . so this begins, too. The lovely dance of don't-want-to-see-him-but-want-him-to-know-the-baby.
I have lost it this past few days, so I hope I can regain my GAL quickly. Thanks for your support.
