I have drawn that conclusion - the secrecy getting worse is even more of a sign. Her computer is now hidden in our house somewhere, I haven't even seen her cell phone in a week and she's completely abandoned her facebook/yahoo accounts.

My challenge is I don't know what one or two things to do. If I didn't have my D and this happened I would likely pack up my stuff and leave. I just can't bring myself to do that. I provide the majority of care for my D and couldn't bare leaving her.

At this point I also trust my W so little that I'd be worried about what she may say to my D. There have been a few occasions where I've had to ask her to stop talking while D was around and wait for the right time.

This is not the person I married - I found receipts for Botox (315.00 a shot). I don't know where the money came from because it didn't come from our joint account. So another secret.

I can go mostly dark - and just talk about D. I was doing that before the exposure conversation but that would be for me...to avoid speaking with her.

Anyway as I said I'm open to suggestions. I am being selective on consequences as well I think because OM is a cop.


M 40
W 39
D 4
M 5 years
Bomb dropped 08/09
In house separation