feel like giving up - pt 2

[luvless]

I guess I should tell you guys what happened yesterday. I had to pick up H from airport bcuz older son was in class (last time I will ever get him) I took daughter with me as a buffer. He said hello to her and nothing to me other than 10 mins later "u should get in the carpool lane."

He packed because he was going back out at 9pm...his traveling is beyond ridiculous. I knew I wasn't going to talk to him again so I told him, "I have some things I want to tell you." He really didn't want to talk so I said, "oh you'll want to listen bcuz this is the last time I'll be talking to you."

I told him everything I needed to get off my chest. It was about 45 mins of me telling him what I liked about our marriage and what I didn't like. I explained to him I would not let him rewrite our history - he agreed. I brought up what he's been doing and he still avidly denies any PA. I do not believe that for one second.

He is involved with some other woman now and not the original one (I think) He was at her house till 4am on a friday night then again till midnight on that next Monday so something is definately going on. He swears he's done nothing and says he's tired of me accusing him ha! who's tired?

He said one thing that hurt bad but what did I expect? I said, "you have abandoned me and the kids" he said, "I don't appreciate you saying I abandoned the kids..I want to be here I just don't want to be with you." ouch - last nail driven in. I said, "where does this anger come from?" I said, "what did I do to you?" he replies, "nothing I'm just done."

He kept saying "why are you referring to this being the last time you talk to me?" I thought to myself...why do you care I thought you were done!

Anyway he said he understood (with some of the things I told him) and I gave him a goodbye - the last hug he will ever get from me

A very sad Luv....