Well, at least you didn't consume Good & Plenty's, junk coffee, chocolate donuts and some chex mix ON THE WAY HOME FROM THE GYM!!!!!! sick Sigh. Old habits coming back at me in my stress.

(did I mention that also in my bag of goodies on the seat next to me were gummy bears, Ben & Jerry's, an ice cream bar, more donuts and a huge unhealthy blueberry muffin????! I am not joking. It's ok. You can laugh- go ahead)

You and I are doing the same thing today, R- letting our spouses dictate our mood. I don't know how to beat it yet- it's easy to tell you not to let it get to you, harder to do it myself. Remember my wise Buddhist analogy of the leaf and the rock a few weeks ago? I tried to say to myself "you are the rock, you are the rock" today. But it didn't work so well.

For all you know, our SOs are holding themselves back from saying more b/c they are trying to distance and not think about what they're doing b/c they're not sure about it. We just don't know. How about you and I make a pact to try to do something WE feel like doing tonight, regardless of them, that makes us feel decent and not worry about what their next thought or move is-- Deal? I am going to watch some favorite TV shows (after I figure out how to get D2 to go to and stay asleep god dangit), eat a SMALL amount of treats, then read my good book. Maybe take a bath. You?

And please send anti-ice cream thoughts to me tonight cry

When the men on the chessboard
Get up and tell you where to go;
And you've just had some kind of mushroom
And your mind is moving slow;
Go ask Alice...
I think she'll know.