Didn't sound too bad. You told her the truth and was respecting the wishes of the OM and his W. It's your W that still wants to push buttons. Good job at sticking to your guns.
Maybe you need to go out and not be as mopey around the house. You may not thing you are, but it will tend to come out without you realizing it.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.