Time for darkness.... (thread number 3)ears open

[james217]

ok you guys are right. ill start the 48 hours. PDT.

She told me she knows I won't leave her. She knows I’m going to always be there for her no matter what. She doesn’t even really take me seriously after awhile of her crying. She just keeps saying she knows I won’t leave her ever. I will always be there for her to love and care about her. That I will always be her friend and there to talk to her when she needs me.

And that, right there, James . . . is your problem.

So long as that's how she feels, you'll be stuck.

You can't even go 48 HOURS without contacting her; how will you ever be able to convince her otherwise??

Puppy

I guess youre right PDT. And that's exactly how I feel. "stuck" perfect word. Perfect tell it how it is short and sweet advice.

I think I've done a pretty good job of phase 1. My plan may be stupid but this is what i'm thinking about the sitch with her.

I wanted to make everything a lie. I wanted to show her how I really felt. I felt really bad about some of the things she's stated because I was that guy. I didn't pay her attention or compliment her or hold her that way or listen to her or take her nice places and talk to her in a lovingly way.

So I made several fun happy memories so that's the last thing she will remember. When she thinks of me she can think of our dates together all of this month. She can remember all our fun conversations. If she so chooses.

She has gone from totally hating me or having all this anger to somewhat missing me, calling me, pursueing me even for brief periods.

She has confided in me. We've talked and whatever else. I'm not gonna get sick worrying about this stuff. I'm trying to take it easy for the next few days until work.

I don't understand why I cant just be nice and loving and not have it taken for granted.

im going nc contact 48 and then hope I can last a little longer. I have detached somewhat. I'm not an emotional wreck or consitently sending texts calls and emails but I need to really do better at it
I have to let her miss me and if she doesn't then I know her love for me was not true.