It definitely sucks Frank. It makes me want to become an activist for this issue, that's how wrong I think it is.
But you...YOU my friend have learned so many lessons over these four years. You found out what was important and allowed that knowledge to change the way that you think. And you certainly have grown in your love for your children. You've allowed what must sometimes seem like an endless nightmare to refine you, to toughen you in all the right ways.
I have no doubt that you will make every moment with your children a time where they know they are loved and cherished. While I rue the minimal amount of time you get, my bet is that your kids will feel more love in their time with you than many kids who live full time with their parents ever get to feel.
As for the lonely times in between, well Frank, you are an educated and adventurous man. With all the traveling you've done, with all the interests you have, you might be surprised at how easily you fill your free time. As for dating, etc, don't be in a rush. Let it happen in it's time and when it feels right to you.
If we've learned nothing else through the struggles we all fought through, we hopefully at least learned the incredible beauty of listening to and following our hearts.
Blessings,
Bill
P.S. I know why you would need to step away from here. But I assure you that in time you will realize that you have much to offer others who are new to this mess.
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."
