6 MONTHS IN AND FEELING A WOBBLE........

[lalxx]

a bit of an update really
so back from my son's concert - met up with my husband outside the City Hall - he got the drinks, the children and I sat down - when he joined us I was talking to my son's drum teacher - my husband later told me he thought he was my boyfriend???

We were sitting in front of a few old ladies who had worked at my husband's school whilst he was there - he was the lovely old charming husband - catching up with them etc - he introduced me to them as his wife - I overheard him saying he was organising a school reunion (talk about going back in time......).

I saw the 15 year old child tonight - when a singer walked on in a low cut dress he said "wow, this is more like it" - I have managed to be pleasant and cordial with him - looking good - smiley and had good eye contact.

He was wearing clothes he has bought post bomb - purple is so not his colour - he looked tired and his eyes still looked dead - I caught him looking at me a few times during the performance but I concentrated on looking at the stage (it's amazing what mum's see out of the corner of their eyes isn't it??).

So, the kids almost got in the car without saying goodbye - they then gave him hugs and kisses by which time I was belted up in the drivers seat - we sorted out some detail about the handover tomorrow and I drove off.

Feel ok about how I conducted myself - I am not sitting here in a quivering heap and the overheard conversation isn't bothering me at all - so I try hard at being detached and tonight I feel accomplished it for the first time properly - he is around a bit next week so I can see I'll be putting my new found skills to good use.

lalxx