I am signing the D papers. I don't have any more energy to DB or any fight in me to keep believing.
nothing has changed, except fo rmaybe th eanger in me. Why be friends but not my husband? Why want to move in to help when baby is born but not when i was Pregnant and needed you? Why want to participate in baby naming, birthing classes, and furniture shopping, but not want to be a family? If you want to just be a dad... get a dog already! or go find someone else to have a baby with! Im tired of someone toying with my emotions. Im tired of the whole game. He left almost 4 months ago... didnt just leave me... but left me pregnant. I feel in my heart right now that there is NO getting back from that. Too much has past . Too much damage has been done.
If I sign, then maybe I will really understand that it is over and there is no turning back, no wishful thinking, no hoping he is going through MLC or something else. Just maybe this is what I need for closure... maybe its time I just end what he started and move on...
