Part of me wants so bad to find someone to distract me.. but at the end of the day, I feel like I'll just end up doing to H what he did to me. and I don't want to mess myself up too bad emotionally, you know? I feel like I need to go through this, without distractions. I feel like I need to feel these feelings in order to get past it.
Thanks timehealsall, I understand how you feel. I going to be very careful when it comes to this. I do feel like I'm cheating. In a way I am. But i also have to remember I am letting my wife go. Having a distraction helps that. it's up to you how much of a distraction it becomes.
