I do realize that I am only giving him more reason to run or proving his image of what the relationship is. I just am hopeless that he will ever come back to reality.... I guess I can't dwell on it and I can't change it either.
We all are sweetie. read my sitch.. you'll see I'm in the same boat here.. Fear is a b!tch.. I fear my H will be away and not think of me or miss me.. Better yet, I'm afraid that he will somehow think he's better off without me during this time. BUT I can't let that fear destroy me. I need to use this space from him to better myself and become stronger. I control my path, not him. I'm making changes in myself that will help me and any situation I find myself in, with or without him.
M: 32 H: 34 S:5 D: 3 D: 1 Together 11 years Married 7 Bomb: PA/EA 8/13/09 (for 1 year on and off) ILYBINILWY: 08/09
"The end of suffering happens with the end of wanting." -Laura Munson
