Maybe the words I threw back at him: just like you decided you were "Done" and chose a day to announce it to me; I decided I was "done" and needed to move your stuff" resonated with him.
But here is a huge and heartwrenching DUH. Brought to you by none other than Cosmo magazine. Which was just in the costume shop; I was reading it for the sex tips which maybe one day I'll get to use.
ANYHOW--in the "advice column" at least 3 times in 2 issues, the advisor wrote "many men emotionally disengage from the R months before actually making the break."
Now, duh, this is totally WAS. But I always found it so painful to read about that--to see and understand and know that X must have been sooo unhappy for so long--and perhaps all the last year--who knows? was a big pretense as his heart slowly withdrew from me--and I never knew.
I guess we hear things when we are ready to hear them, even from unlikely sources. When I have the strength, I will learn more about WAS, but I still can't bear the pain and guilt of finding out how unhappy he was...and I didn't know it.
Oh, there is more to post, but I can't wallow right now.
Wish me luck for the HALF-marathon on Sunday! I hope my cute running skirt arrives in time! (and don't worry, MF--these skirts come with compression shorts--wouldn't go out without 'em!)
