Well the Xmas Puds seemed to turn out OK. Today I am making some Mincemeat.
A hard days cooking really helps to calm you down when you are freaking out. When I got home I felt much calmer. It did not bother me too much that H did not say anything about the letter. He seemed in quite a good mood tho and was nice to me. I wondered about saying something myself but decided not to for now- I didn't want to push too hard, just leave it and see what happens like sowing a seed. I guess he took it as a love letter rather a "relationship letter" (a new term I have just invented). It's true I would have liked more of a response but of course the true response I want is to improve our R. It seems to me that he did seem more affectionate. Although I said I would like to talk more openly about sex with him I don't think either of us is ready to jump into a full blown sex talk. We are just up to the point of making little jokes about it. I guess we are talking about baby steps here, but they all seem to be heading in the right direction.
