great new skirt, red peep toes pumps and I feel fabulous!
I will admit that when I woke up this morning, I had D on my mind. I just kept thinking to myself. How long can I actually go on like this? this limbo? how long will I be able to put up with it? I'm not done yet. In fact, I feel as though I am the strongest I've been in a long time. I still love my H. there is no doubt about that. But I love myself more. I haven't felt that in a long time. I lost myself for a while.
Like Laura Munson says in her book "Because whether or not he comes back to me, I will be ultimately empowered by my commitment not to suffer...If my H and I come out the other side, together, in love, still married, and unsuffering, then this... will have been worth it...And even if we don't, then I know I will be a better person for living this way."
M: 32 H: 34 S:5 D: 3 D: 1 Together 11 years Married 7 Bomb: PA/EA 8/13/09 (for 1 year on and off) ILYBINILWY: 08/09
"The end of suffering happens with the end of wanting." -Laura Munson
