I do wish I could have been a better man - wiser, stronger, more supportive, more in touch, whatever it was, whatever my part was .
to me, means that you still have some work to do on yourself. If you can't put your finger on some of the specifics of your failings, you can't have made all the changes to yourself that you should have made.
Whatever happens in the future, you do not want a repeat of what you're going through now.
The only way to work to keep that from happening is to take the time NOW to fix the things that needed fixed.
Blessings,
Bill
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."