I was about to reply when H came home several days earlier than he had said he would, just pulled up in the driveway and we then had probably the biggest touch and go since this crisis began. It was like the best of old times, and as usual he pulled away a few hours before he was due to go and ended up walking out of the house wearing a new tee shirt with "the end is nigh" on the front.
A couple of days later a rental property finally came through in the area I was looking so I ended up with two days to pack up the house and move, toddlers in tow. Sent H a text on the way to the new place saying I was on the way and he found it very hard, although knew I was about to move. Within a couple of days, I was contacted by his two oldest friends for the first time during all this, who I thought were very pro H, saying " just the kick up the butt H needed, we support you". Kind of blew me away and did not help my detachment very much!
So I am now reasonably set up in my new place, toddlers are ok but need a lot of TLC to adjust. They do not know about separation yet, that will be in a few weeks once H gets a place of his own. Oh yeah, H is currently on holiday on an island with OW which was booked several months ago. Doing ok with that in general, but hitting my detachment ability also.
I am enjoying moving back to the city. My next hurdle is toddlers are very very clingy at night and while I would love to be going out and having kid free fun for me, I need to let them settle into the changes first. I do have friends with kids similar ages so its still kids in tow for now.
Pretty intense few fews but a bit of breathing space now!
