I want to thank everyone for the great advice and I will continue coming here to re-charge. I check in frequently, and I value and am coming to cherish each and every post.
Understand that is all very raw right now. I'm still in a state of disbelief and going through all the emotions right now. Anger is most prevalent right now. But I'm pushing on. I meet the L on Monday and have a chance to respond on my terms.