Thank you Allen and Puppy. This has been so hard. I am so afraid of losing him. I love him so much. We had a really great marriage for about 12 to 13 years. Then I went back to school while working full time with kids. I neglected him and he found someone else. Now I am a crying basket case a lot of the time, I know that won't keep him coming back. My emotional state is wacky, as this limbo has been going on for over a year now.
You know other than the EA with the OW. We have a phenomenal sex life and do all sorts of things together. It's when we communicate or have to talk to each other it is not so good. We use to be each others best friends. No longer.
The OW was married but is now getting a divorce. She has a drinking problem.
I travel with my job. Right now I am away at a clients and come home Friday afternoon. I am so afraid that he has been in contact with her.
What if I do what you say and he leaves? Then what I am all alone. I am in IC but with my travel schedule I am lucky to go once a month.
I know you have been there done that...I need courage (roar). I think my husband knows I am scared to be alone.
I just want back what we had....I hope that isn't impossible.
