I have been following your thread, and I know you will be okay. You have given me strength at times I did not know I had by reading your posts. You will be okay! Being strong needs a rest sometimes. The strength you have will come and go, but you still have it and tomorrow is a new day. You just need to rest from being strong and just be you.
I hope what I said makes sense.
Take care of yourself!
ME-41 W-33 M-8 D-8 S-4 D 5/17/2010 www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1961097#Post1961097
Thank you for following along and for all your support. I couldn't do this without you guys.
H comes home this afternoon. I used to be excited and anticipate him coming home from a business trip and now it's just all anxiety what a horrible way to feel about the man I loved.
Well I am going to smile and be Luv bcuz it's all I can do today.
M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
I just got home from picking up H from airport. He is going back out again at 9pm so I have to take him back ugh.
He didn't even say hello to me. I am not expecting I am just saying...it's a sickening feeling what's going on here. I am going to stop the bleeding very soon.
Luv you guys for checking on me. I need it right now.
M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
Are you feeling strong enough to ask without judgement or criticism why he didn't say anything like hello when he saw you? Can you listen and "empathize" despite his not having earned it to better understand.
Even if he's acting like a different H than you married, understanding might help control the pain and lead you toward better choices for you, your children, and maybe even him, too.
(((Luv))) Just thinking of you and hope that you can have a peaceful evening after 9pm tonight.
When the men on the chessboard Get up and tell you where to go; And you've just had some kind of mushroom And your mind is moving slow; Go ask Alice... I think she'll know.
Luv you alice for saying having a peaceful night after 9 cuz that's when it will be. I drop him off around 9:45 and then it's on! No more BS for Luv.
I tell you guys...tonight...was especially hard...I wanted to tell him sh*t I had on my mind...amongst other things.
I called him on his stuff. He raised his voice several times - he backed down saying he wasn't trying to be rude. He was. My D even noticed and told him so.
Two more hours people and my life with H is over as we know it. When he comes back its a whole different story.
I will give him a hug goodbye...he won't know it will be the last
Luv
M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
what a horrible way to feel about the man I loved.