"Permission" is a word I use--I feel like I need "permission" to feel better when I have had a stressful day. I need to give MYSELF permission, and actually, that is exactly what I did today. I got S home from school, gave my H the choice of grilling the meat I had or eating leftovers (he said he wanted leftovers, but then grilled instead.... )
And I went for a 2 hour ride. It was nice. I do a lot of praying on my horse, and thanking God for all I do have.
I'm especially reminded of that by a neighbor girl we have. She was an orphan in the Ukraine. My neighbors wanted to adopt a little girl and was offered her 5 year old sister online. They got to see the little girl, fell in love, and then was told she has an older sister. So they felt obligated to not split the girls, but it's been obvious they didn't want the older one (she was 12).
She is now 17 and I'm just now becoming aware of how horribly they have treated this girl. She is very bright, gets all A's in school, and is just a teenager living with a nutcase. The W is just FULL of drama--there are all kinds of animals over there, it's filthy, they have money problems but she is constantly online buying horse things (13 saddles in the past 2 years--they have 4 horses). Her H is a saint--I don't know how he puts up with this woman.
So the girl gets frustrated wtih the weird lifestyle and craziness and of course, is a teen, and is probably more mouthy than she should be. So they have threated to send her back! And according to my farrier, have tried to get a Dr. to say she needs to be medicated. OMG!!
This poor girl. I told her I'm so sorry, she has to be the adult and just GET THROUGH IT and GET OUT. I want to do SO much more for her, but my H is going to tell me to mind my own business. This Friday he is working and I am going to try to get her and take her out to the coffee shop with my S and some of his friends. I bet she could use a night out!
I had a long chat with her yesterday--she is now living with 2 other neighbors who took her in, but she is afraid they will not keep her. She knows if she has to go back they will get her on medication. I told her if she does have to go back, she is 17 and smart--maybe she could get her GED and just get out at 18. She wants to join the military and I think that is a fabulous idea.
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