I have the "better" job w/insurance and so forth, but with child care taken out IF we get a D, there wouldn't be enough to live on. I'm not really stretching the truth here. They would take about 42% of my net pay. That doesn't leave much left over for rent, food, etc. I'm not saying I don't want to take care of my kids. It scares me to death to not have enough for basic necessities. I know I'm not explaining it well. It's not the money, you know? It's the whole damn thing.
I know there are advantages to both separating and not. I'm trying to use W still being here with us to my advantage. I just get lost sometimes. What to do? I have to constantly watch what I say and do. When will she wake up?
