I started doing my refinance which has been a little nerve wrecking but it is moving along nicely. I haven't really spoken to my H at all..just business over email.
I know the timing is all wrong for this...but I have a date on Friday. I have been talking to that man I met last Saturday. I feel like a teenager. We are on the phone for hours. He is cute, funny, smart, loves to travel..... Really- just too good to be true. The best part...he thinks I am beautiful, funny, interesting, smart, humble etc etc. I have been smiling for days. I cannot remember the last time I felt so good. I am not going to get ahead of myself here..but I am enjoying every moment of this. I wasn't looking for any of this..it kind of just fell on my lap. I don't want to turn it away.
I know I still need to deal with all the emotions and feelings of the D. I am going to continue to go to IC.
For the past few days..I haven't gone to bed thinking about my H and our D...I haven't woke up thinking about my H and our D...and it is refreshing. I am literally a giddy school girl right now.
I don't know if I am going to fall apart at some point..but I feel so strong..and completely detached right now. Peace at last!!
