Show a smile, hope, love. That doesn't mean pursing or hiding your hurt when you're hurt. It means over all, be a good, happy person. Enjoy the good things in your life, like your D for now. Later on, your W will see that even if she can't/won't today.
I have been doing this, because honestly on Saturday I realized that I don't want what I wanted two weeks or a month ago. I look at my wife, the lies she has told her family, the way she talks to my daughter. Her shortness with both of my children and I no longer want that around me or our kids. Whatever is going on with her I don't want to be apart of it. I want to move on with my life. If I can't even come up with one positive quality besides she is beautiful isn't that some kind of sign. My heart isnt 100% in this any more. Is it normal to feel like this? Is it just a phase and I'll go back to wanting to be with her. That is the thing I don't know how I feel. I don't know if I want to continue DBing. The last few days where I have felt like I was done trying I have felt relaxed and happy. I don't effing know....
I like all this empty space because i can now type out things that are important.
Like: D7 S2 starting swimming lessons on 3/30
"Readily will I display the intestinal fortidue required to fight on..."
