Seen H last night at the house, he has been packing to move this weekend and when I first got there it did bring me down a little seeing his stuff in boxes.
I signed D papers yesterday and handed them to H last night. He asked if I wanted to wait 3 months to file. I told him that was his decision not mine and that he knows how I feel about this. He kept asking me that, like he wanted it to my decision, and I refused to answer and just kept telling him it was in hands. He finally said that he wanted to wait 3 months. I asked why wait. And he informed me that he is having 2nd thoughts. And that he changes his mind every day. He also mentioned that packing up all his stuff has been emotionally hard for him. He said he thought we needed some time a part, 2-3 months and then decide to work it out or not. He said he thought after 2 months I wouldn't want him back anymore. With that, I said I've wanted you back these last 5 months, and 2 months would not change my mind. I did a lot of validating and even joked that he would probably like the bachelor life better anyway. To this he said NO, he didn't like it already.
He said he has been having 2nd thoughts for awhile, but didn't want to say anything to me because he didn't want to give me hope and have me go crazy and start stalking him again (his words).
Not sure if I should read much into all this. However, it's the first sign in the last 2 months that he is thinking maybe D is not the answer.
Whether the above means anything or not, I've been GAL and detaching with love. And not matter what happens to my M, it is worth to me. Hmmmm, I think about a million people on here have been telling me this since Dec (-:
I would love to see what some of the veterans think about this.
Together 16 years Married 12 years Me 36 H 34 D9 & S6 Separated 12/3/09 Confirmed A 1/25/10 Exposed A 1/26/10 H hired L, but not filed yet 1/27/10
