Di, I don't think your whining at all. You are legitimately stuck (this may be a bad word) in a role you think you have to play. A role your very comfortable with and very much enjoy. Interestingly enough you are probably at the same spot many of our spouses found themselves in as they began their journey into MLC. Have you considered that you may in fact be starting or well into a MLC? My understanding, and I can relate to this, is most MLCers share one thing; a feeling of lost identity.
I understand what your asking. Unfortunately, the only person who can answer the question about what gets you going is you. The challenge you're going to face is getting out of your comfort zone of care taking. You may have to do something crazy like asking your H take on more responsibility for the daily activities of the kids for a week while you sort things out. Maybe go somewhere by yourself for a couple of days of reflection. You get the point. You have to be a little bit selfish.
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