Hi Gatsby, thanks for dropping by. H and I had the same discussion of friends vs no friends... when i say its hard and i cant just turn off my feelings, he says he understands and if i need time and space he gets it? I asked him if he ever misses us... he said sometimes. i didnt get excited over it at all... we all miss people sometimes, doesnt mean you want them back...
but he basically sounds like he gets annoyed if i dont agree to the friendship thing... i dont get it. I was poking around on a few threads and some say the friend thing can be a step towards reconciliation... just not sure if my H is just being selfish and wants a friend and nothing more. it is a huge risk... what if i agree to the friend thing (although i dont believe i am strong enough for it right now) and that is truly all he wants from us.
today i am really tired of DBing. i sometimes think i dont have the stregnth to go through this and am focusing too much on H and not enough on me and baby. that makes me really angry.
what if i am never strong enough to forgive him, or accept him in my life? what if i cant even get past the anger or hurt or feelings of betrayel?
glad to hear you are not so angry... great thing about this site, it does always help me and pick me up.
