Avermont, I posted about this but I thought I'd bring it up here. Are you on ADs? I am trying them for the first time.
I don't think that I was actually depressed when I started on them, just feeling the incredibly difficult feelings that have been triggered by the separation. And struggling with a lot of anxiety. I just wanted to share here that now that the ADs are kicking in, it seems like the positive things that I'm doing for myself are starting to kick in. It seems like it's easier to let go of the painful thoughts (about possible OW) rather than them festering in my mind. I still have hopeless thoughts about the future, but they don't stab me in the gut anymore because the anxiety isn't as strong. So I just want to say that I think that ADs might be helping in my process of detachment.
Also want to say that I downloaded a short and cheap audiobook from Byron Katie to listen to during a walk, and something really clicked in me as I listened to the words. Just wanted to recommend them when you want to put something positive in your brain when your brain is stuck on stressful thoughts.
(((Aver)))
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.