For a long time, I'd felt pretty sad and defeated in most of my appts with my IC. But suddenly in one appt I started feeling angry, and I began speaking quite 'snarkily' about my H (if that's a word!?). Well my IC was thrilled! She actually said it was a good thing! I can't remember her exact words, but the idea was that it showed I'd turned a corner - that this kind of 'spunk' was necessary at that point in order to start getting my power back.
I had a similar discussion with my new IC last night. I had been describing the insight I've been getting through reading The Journey from Abandonment To Healing and the stages of recovery in it. Then I said, Where's my rage? When does the anger finally come?" Long story short, she expounded on it and said when it does come -and I'm (over) due - the real healing will begin and the real me will re-emerge.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
