I want to thank you for giving me hope over the years and you didn't even know it. You are a true inspiration. You are da bomb. We all are da bomb...for staying onboard.
Of course we all wouldn't be da bomb if we all didn't receive the bomb! Figure that out.
Thanks!
I am trying to leave my wife alone which is one of the reasons I moved out. She knows how I feel. Hopefully this will give her time. I see her quite often because of the kids. I would like to scale that back a bit if possible. I have been helping her with the house - We both had let the house go over the past 2.7 years becuase we were both so wrapped up in our sitch. This has helped. She has shown much interest in fixing up the house again. cleaning, painting, fixing broken things. I am sort of handy so I do stop by and help do certain things for her. Put up molding, cut grass etc.
Is this okay??? I do things but try not to linger. Any thoughts? It is still half my house and if things don't get better it will be sold.
I don't know what I would do right now if she hooked up with a man. I think that would all but finish me off and force me to move on. I have been at this a long time and a new relationship would just drag this thing out a lot longer then I think I could take.
Sometimes I think if I found someone else....well that would be the one thing that would make her realize what she has done and maybe start to bring her out but that would be manipulating the sitch and compromising my morals and besides that I might like it too much to return.
Anyway...since I decided to move. I have seen days of happiness and days of unhappiness and anger. Before that it was....feelings of depression, hoplessness, crying, staring in to space.
I'm starting to sound less then masculine.....I'm quitting for now.
