embracing change

[flowmom]

So a friend had an interesting theory that my new-found "detachment" could be the ADs finally kicking in. It's been 2 weeks since I started on the second AD that I switched to, so that makes sense. I definitely feel less anxious, the pain in my stomach is gone, my appetite is better, and I have more of a "flat" feeling. I don't really have any more hope about the future than I did, I just don't feel as much anxiety about it. Thoughts?

About H: I'm feeling a bit pissed today. H is making zero effort to interact or be pleasant with me. I wish I didn't have to interact with him at all. I deserve the consideration that a distant colleague or bank teller would get. If he wants to live "happily ever after" as coparents, he's going to have to make more of an effort than this. It pisses me off that I would have to point this out to him though...I've been overcompensating in our R for years and I'm reluctant to continue doing it.

I stupidly left my computer accessible too and I'm worried that he snooped. Not that it makes any difference I guess.