you guys are too wise; and I hate to think of all the people whom have packed their tents...Gno- I know you almost did.
I hate to think of OW as a crutch, but I must be realistic...I could not be where I am right now w/o her, so obv she is a crutch.
I do feel pretty detached from W b/c I can go either way...again- I realize that w/ OW in the pic, that is the only reason why.
It is not an open door for W, at least not wide open...I have a lot of boundaries for her:
-IC -Treatment and meetings -honesty w/ everyone in her life involved in this (family, friends, my family) -humility and accepting responsibility to my family and the disrespect she displayed -NC w/ OM1/OM2
Once this is done, I will consider MC and rebuilding a R...then perhaps our M.
It is a tall order- I do NOT need my parents to approve of my M- but I do require my M to be as healthy and fulfilling as possible
W/o these things there can be nothing...not even a friendship.
Again, I wish I had gotten here w/ OW, but it is what it is.
I explained to OW, that W said everything I've wanted to hear, that I am furious about it, and that there is no M until W is who she needs to be...
Yes, I know I need to be who I am supposed to be as well...OW understands this, is afraid, and also understands that I cannot base my decision around her...she is VERY healthy...also ironic to be caught in this sitch...
I TRULY appreciate EVERYONE'S input in my sitch, the support means more than anything to me...I wish I had done things PERFECTLY, but we know that does not happen...I hope no one believes they have wasted their time in aiding me...
I do want what is best for me...I do deserve better...I know I am still failing in many ways.
