I just have to say my nerves are shot and I do mean shot.
Tonight is the final exchange of furniture with my H. My friends will be here to help me haul it out so I don't have to see him.
His behavior over this past week has been so foul it is simply astonishing. The continued lies and rudeness is still amazing to me. He has treated me poorly and lied about things that are just stupid.
I have refrained from reacting or responding at all. It has not been easy. While I know I can go to bed each night feeling I took the high road after this week I must admit it is EXHAUSTING.
I have not been in my H's life now for over two years aside from legalities and a handful of "in person" meetings. For so long my IC told me my H's behavior is not about me, it's about him even though I am the recipient of his crap. Logically I understood that but I think for the first time today I am actually *feeling* it. This is all him and while it is terribly disrespectful and mean to me, I know it can't be about me at this point.
Send me strength tonight can be done how it should be done. The ONLY time he can come is 11pm with the truck. I have so much to do in the next few hours and thankful my friends will be with me. His items will go in the hall (not allowed in) and I have granted him access to the storage area for one hour. Seeing how I organized it all while he was on a vacation with his mistress it should be pretty easy for him to get in and out.
We still have a few asset issues to wrap up but I think I can say, as my H comes to pick up his stuff to move in the house he now shares with his mistress, things are done. I found out a few days ago they had moved some time ago yet he continues to lie to me. I don't ask but the lies pour out. So sad.
I am nervous and kind of sad I guess. I really don't know what I am. Thanks for the venue to get this all out. xoxoxo citygirl
