The saga continues. Don't ask me how this can go on so long. My patience is all but eroded.
No sexual relations since last june. No intimacy whatsoever since last june. Not even the pretense, not even for show for the kids. The kids aren't dumb and i suspect they suspect something because i see a wall there where they will not discuss anything.
W pretends. And keeps going along. Suspected EA's? Maybe one sided at best. She's up and down. There and not there.
I am completely emotionally detached from the possibilities. I just don't give a flying you know what anymore. I am tired. So tired of this bull. My wife is so detached and emotionally unavailable. At times still so unhappy and unwilling to communicate whatsoever. I do not know how to help her. There will be one last attempt to go all out and do something different for 'me' but perhaps for her as well. Giving her space has not done a thing. She has not done anything with it. I will sacrifice and change once more as i have sacrificed but this is the final straw. After this there is nothing left for us and she will get a jolt because i will be the walkaway spouse.
This is almost a decade in the making. If it weren't for the kids i'd be gone long ago. Just frustrated beyond belief. Its hard when a marriage is so one sided.
