How do I act?

[Surviving03]

ok guys...

As of last night... H and I were completely done... I told him again that I am not going to be told that its Iraq or me and if that is the case, then I will leave with no regrets... H told me he is going to Iraq regardless, so I said ok bye!

Then today....

H is on IM from work and tells me out of the clear blue sky that he wants to do whatever possible to make it work, including not going to iraq, putting only the bases that I want to go to on his list, cancelling the ERD, anything and everything...

I am at a loss for words, dont really believe him, anything... he kept saying to me he is scared that I will change MY mind and not want to be with him, but he is willing to risk it... I said what made you change your mind... he said he has been thinking for awhile and he knows he has been an [censored] and stubborn but I am what he wants and he will do whatever.....

So I called the Legal office and sure enough he cancelled the ERD for me to go home. Then I told a mutual friend of ours about what happened, and he said "really?? maybe cause I told him today how much he F'd up" I said what??? he said yeah i sat down with him today and basically told him exactly what i think about all of this and that he has lost you for good and for nothing.... and that I dont respect him for how this all went down etc..... and on top the of that the legal office had called him today to tell him that the ERD was almost done and wanted to confirm with him that he still wanted to go thru with it....So i guess that did something to him??

I dont know.... I told him its what I want, but Im scared to death... I dont want to be stupid... I dont want to rush into it too fast.... I dont know what to do or how to act now..... advise?? I had my mind made up that I was done, so its hard to come back from that and to have any trust.... we have been down this "i want to make it work" road before, but this time he actually took some action and told me things he has never said before, like he wont even go to Iraq anymore....