the issue with BIL is that i'm not involving him, he is involving himself now. he wants to speak to each of us separately and figure out how to resolve this. i've already been pretty tight lipped and said he can talk to H to get a better idea of what is going on.

the thing with my H and I, is that culturally, this is a huge issue...will hurt the family name, will hurt family members deeply, etc. so BIL wants to make this work for their sake and ours. while secretly, i'm so on board with that, i do know that any "fixing" right now will push H away.

ok, stepping back for now (physically and mentally) and going to bed. i'm beat cause today was hard for me emotionally... feeling sad again.


Me 30, H34, M7years
Bomb dropped 5/09, S8/09, Living together 2/10 (due to external forces)