You are all correct. Today is not the day to beat myself silly with the mistakes that I have made but it is the day to look at where I went wrong and to make sure that I am moving forward with my healing and growth. I clearly push the timeline forward with my snoopping and anger. I did not detach fast enough I did not let go quick enough. No my male pride controlled my emotions and therein lies the root of the problem. My actions more recently have reflected the new me. The changes that I need to make will take time. Although I feel hurt right now I will no divert my focus off of making these changes. I will leave the legal stuff to the L. I will instruct the L to be fair. I do not want a war here. This is a time for me to show myself and my W the man that I am becomming. If she chooses to see it then amen, if not then amen as well.
Life is strange sometimes. Quite often we need to be totally broken to see what really needs to be fixed. I hit the totally broken state several weeks back and now it is time to deal with the consequences of my actions, which although understandable where not done well.
I SO APPRECIATE everyones advise and feedback. This is now a major turning point in defining who Eric has become.
Thanks for your words Mila.
Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
