GNO- your clairvoyance is legendary...lol...yes you did call this. Secretly I knew it would be as effed up as possible, so indeed- it HAD to happen.
I do like the IC advice...I will press that.
Truegritt- I know, I know- and I'm not being an A$$ when I say that...
W is in heavy pursuit- telling me she's reading all the books I've already read, making a MC appt., texting me all day, sending pics of my other two dogs, etc...
WTF?!
Now I'm the one having an A- WTF, WTF, WTF...
Spoke to my dad, he's livid! Telling me I'm asking for trouble if I let W back into my life...he feels that W's friends are all morons for taking sides so easily and NEVER once thinking W's side might be slanted.
W has been using drugs, I know- and I know it's not ovr just b/c she says she's done...it took my 30 days inpatient to have a grasp on things.
What do I do...buy time? I was ready to walk and she's giving me everything I ever wanted to hear...what if it's the truth?
I asked W why she took so long- that I was walking...
her reply:
I know and don't know...scared maybe...but I know I can't let my H walk away w/o putting forth the effort the M deserves...I would understand if u still want to walk...not what I want though.
I just spoke w/ my father- I wish he didn't know everything he knows...
I will be disowned if I welcome W back- I will have no R w/ my nephew, mother or father, if I welcome W back....WTF is that?!
Don't get me wrong- I understand completely from their perspective...I would be the same way w/ someone I care about going through went I went through...
Question- do I tell W to do what I did? to fight for me the way that I did for her? Or do I see if she doe it on her own? I think I know the answer to this question already...
Fate and sheer determination are one of the same in this matter...if she ever wanted it the way that I did, she will instinctively do what I did...
-fight like hell -do whatever it takes -humble herself to my parents (beg, cry, plead, etc- apologize)
Is it fair for my parents to do this to me? To blackmail me financially and emotionally?
I feel like a child...they treat me like a child...is breaking free from them in these regards what I need to do? I know my life will be more difficult...is it fair for them to weigh in on my M this way?
I know Puppy said he wished his parents didn't know everything...I'm sure most people dealing w/ A's are in the same boat.
Love is love and people are people and some of us do STUPID things...my mother wouldn't even speak to me...
She's the emotional one, the one who understands...
I'm not making any decisions...if W loves me and wants this more than anything, she will fight like hell...Why do I have to test her- it doesn't seem right!?
