Have a meeting with one of the mortgage brokers tonight... And seeing another "accidentally" at my friend's house...Should find out if there is any hope at all to qualify for another house (or the one I already have)... If not, there are a few rentals I have been looking at (with either a soaker or jacuzzi tub )
Starting to feel more detached... almost to the point of being certain that H is one of the ones who feels he has done too much damage/has too much guilt to R...
And even if he is having a horrible time with OW, he avoided a difficult conversation with me for more than a year about how he was truly feeling...I can't see him having one with her any time soon.. if at all..
I don't know if I'd be able to go through all this again with him..If he ever does want to R... I've spent most of our M compensating for both of our shortcomings and lack of knowledge... I just want peace and not to have to worry about money or such.. and I don't think H will suddenly become responsible again and get a great job (and keep it) because he went to school..
Too much time spent on it, I know.. but my mind is circling with anxiety right now and trying to focus on anything I can other than whether or not I'm moving this summer..
I'm a mass of squiggling feelings and impending doom.. not a good feeling or day..
~ This Diamond now SHINES!! ;-p ~
My Sitch in MLC - http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Main=45253&Number=1901148#
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