I'm really frustrated.... I 'm actually mad now. WTH, this is not going anywhere. H just left after our business meeting, I was hoping that he would bring up at least something about our R. Nothing... zip..zilch..nothing.
Came with a long face, no smile, no kiss. Looked sooo down, (still sick). We talked about business for about 45min and I was really keeping it business like, waiting for him to bring up any personal stuff. The closest he came is to ask how is daughter and how is my mom.
The whole conversation was very guarded. He is the one that brought up getting back together 2 weeks ago, but he is not doing anything about it. If he at least told me that he is doing any work on himself...seeing a councilor or something that would make me believe that he is moving closer.
I had a hard time not to start about us. But I didn't. He may have seen that I was disappointed when he was leaving.
Kissak, it helps to know that you went trough the same thing, but I just don't get it. Now I'm thinking maybe the affair is still going on and he's changed his mind. I don't know anymore.
What I find really frustrating is that before he told me that the affair is over and he wants to R, I was finally ready to move forward with my life and was getting to the point that I was starting to make decisions about my life without him. Sell the house and find something smaller for D & I etc...
Since he asked to come back I feel that I'm back in "nowhere land" again. Waiting for him...
I'm not asking for much, I would be happy if he just showed me that he is moving forward. Talk to me about what he is going through or at least start counseling.
I'm venting....I know patience....let him come to me
Very hard right now
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO
