I need help in the biggest way. I feel so helpless

[timehealsall]

I even conferred with a tarot card/psychic as well lol

Well, you have to tell us what they said!!

That she saw a fresh new start, new beginnings..

saw us moving into another house by year end and that a man with dark hair/eyes is centered around the move...

also saw another baby but that she saw that we were holding off but she didn't know why (she obviously doesn't know about the what I'm going through right now).. and that it would be a boy..

*sigh*

[timehealsall]

i hate the games...

he called me while I was with a colleague working on something, so I didn't pick up my office phone.. he then called my cell phone but I have it switched off, so i didn't notice until i ran out to the gym during lunch.. i called him back to see what was up (he was en route to the airport) and left a message. it's been 3 hours and still NO call back..

WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

I checked the cell phone records and he spoke to a few friends and his mother.. I hate him

[luvless]

"I hate him"

I know how you feel...

(((time)))

[timehealsall]

it's just so annoying.

it kills me that i've always stuck by him no matter what, even now, when he has totally berated me and taken so much from me. yet, he can call and talk to his mother, same mother he hadn't spoken to in almost 3 years because she was badmouthing him and went psycho on me and he'll call the other friend who used to work for him and basically left him to fall flat on his face.

But not me..

*breatheeeeeeeeee*

[mrbt]

Hey Time. Maybe we can put a hex on him.

[timehealsall]

lol

[timehealsall]

that's what I love about this site..

I vented to you guys and got my anger off my chest.

SO when he called, I was as cool as a cucumber!! :O)

[timehealsall]

journaling:

I found myself not thinking of my H as much this time. Not in a bad way though...More like I didn't have as much ill feelings towards him for being gone and it didn't bother me? I don't know. Am I detaching perhaps? I will admit to still feeling just a litttttttttle bit of fear that he won't miss me or think of me.. and that he may go and find someone else.. but I guess that goes along with the territory especially with everything that has happened.

I got myself a mani/pedi.. had dinner with my S5 and got him squeaky clean and then myself as well and we both watched TV and went to bed.

Happy Tuesday everyone!

[RedHeadWife]

it's just so annoying.

it kills me that i've always stuck by him no matter what, even now, when he has totally berated me and taken so much from me. yet, he can call and talk to his mother, same mother he hadn't spoken to in almost 3 years because she was badmouthing him and went psycho on me and he'll call the other friend who used to work for him and basically left him to fall flat on his face.

But not me..

*breatheeeeeeeeee*

This is exactly how I felt. H actually said to me one time "why would I leave you when you have put up w/ all of this and me all this time?" But then he changed his mind again the next day. He went back & forth numerous times in the months he was insisting on D.

I got the book "Why Men Love Bitches" today. I'll let you all know how it is. I'm going to pass it around the office when I'm done

Hope you're doing well today. You sound awesome (I think that's my new word lately "awesome")

I think that's the way to go anyway - don't necessarily answer every time he calls. Let him wonder if HE IS LOSING YOU and he'll back pedal I bet!

[timehealsall]

oooh.. let me know how that is.. I wanna read it.. I'm a bookworm!

I'm on the phone with my pal and she is having trouble with her H. Found movie tixx in his pocket from the night before to a chick flick. I feel so bad for her.

I am doing great!