I have asked him repeatedly, why did he do this? Why? He states that he saw no other way. He was in a situation that he hated so much and just so badly wanted it to end at any cost. He could not longer take the way things were.
did you ever suggest mc? there was another success story (Britt?) where the Britt's h also gave the same excuse for dropping the d-bomb.
this must be a common thing that goes to Hs when they feel they cannot fix the situation. they just want out. my h has been the same way. just wants out at any cost. he is finding out that the cost of wanting out is more than he bargained for. i feel like he's creating a nightmare for himself and blaming me for it. this further fuels is reason that the situation is bad and he needs to get out.
i am still at the early stages of db-ing. i flip flop with my emotions for most of the time. why do i want a relationship with someone who has hurt me so much? can i forgive this person? but i love him.
i also go through a lot of what-ifs. what if he meets someone else and it's too late to db? maybe i should've begged and pleaded. maybe i shouldn't have acted as if nothing was wrong. i have no evidence and no reason to believe that there is OW but that doesn't stop the scenario from entering my head - what if he's planning on marrying some mystery woman and they live happily ever after? what if i lose him for good? what if i can't get over him? what if he never falls in love me with me again?
i go into panic state every once in a while and my mind just goes bonkers with questions.
is it really possible for someone to fall in love with you again?
