I need help in the biggest way. I feel so helpless

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Sounds like a great weekend and now I want some steak! lol

That's what I plan on doing.

I'm trying to remain positive, although I would be lying if I said that that dreaded dear doesn't rise in me on a daily basis.

Fear that if I pull away too much, he'll leave and won't come back. Fear that I am going to be strong and NC him and let him make the effort and that I will GAL and do my thing and that he'll LIKE the NC and won't miss me and won't realize that this marriage is what he does want.

I had complete control of myself this weekend and was very good. There were moments where I though I'd want to lose it but I'd compose myself and be okay and pull through.

I hope I can continue to.