Last night we had a knock down dragout heart to heart. We covered what I'm feeling and what she is feeling. I think she really does not think I care about providing for my family. And I think she really feels that this has been going on for years and has never felt secure.
It got heated a few times with me saying at least I do not want to quit on my family and her telling me that I have been lying since we were first married. (I said I graduated college and I didn't, she found out on our honeymoon, great way to start out eh?)
Nothing settled, but I feel all I have to do is start to show her everything that is coming in, and the prospectives that could be coming in, and see if they do or not. Get her more involved. I thought about hiring her for a job I might be getting for a couple of school systems that involve energy mangement, that is July 1. She could do some running for me and statistics.
I was surprised that she said I had been mean these last few weeks and I told her I was just giving her room. I Have decided to act as if we are fine and be a loving husband until I see bad behavior I have no excuse not to.
Pearl she did bring up the pat on the head!!! Wow, I told her that I appologize for that and that I did not mean for that to be a degregation, by any means. Good call! She said she felt like a pet. (I wish I could get the same affection as our pets!)
