to even go deeper on the naming: for daughter my 18 yr old came up with first name, her middle name are initials of my late mother with hyphen-last.

son somewhat similiar to daughters but middle initials of late father and my last name no hyphen. i remember what h said, so if my parenys were dead that wouuld be his sons middle? he said it with anger.

i feel bad at times but h had made choice to be gone for months and decisions had to be made.

i could never go from being his wife to friend when i still have those feelings for him


Me 39 H 30
d 18 previous marriage
d 2.5 with H
s 4.5months with H
Seperation Nov09
july i'm dim to dark - set internal deadline