Update- Had an awesome weekend w/ my friend, my sitch is complicated now...
Met w/ W tonight- she's experienced many emotions, she cried alot, I have barely seen her cry before.
MIL asked W why W was going to meet w/ me...W is angry b/c her mom and friends have been filling her head w/ things...they have been making her decisions for her.
Very sad, and I knew it was happening all along.
W admitted to using drugs and that OM2 had been supplying them...claims that she's been clean now a few weeks.
W wants to do Retro and MC...WTF?!
W texted me for MC's number and is going to call in the am. Apparently, when I let W know I was interested in pursuing someone, W flipped and thought, "that's my H looking to pursue someone else...?"
I am screwed, I do not want to hurt anyone, but I am still M and feel I need to see the M through, if W is willing to seek help and MC, why wouldn't I at least try?
Be careful what you wish for, is my best advice...I heard everything I had hoped to hear tonight and I am now more conflicted than ever.
I kissed tonight rather passionately, several times, and all initiated by W. I do still love her, but she cannot waltz her way back in w/o boundaries and prerequisites.
