I am well. Had a great day with only one hitch: X came over unannounced and she pushed I allowed her to push my buttons for the first time in a while. It was over soon enough. I ranted it out on my thread and was fine. Even laughed it off with a You Tube here & on FB. Kinda funny (or at least human), actually. Hope you are well. You certainly sound more serene, centered, and strong by the day. (((Serenity)))
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
I saw your post in the alt. and I am sorry you allowed her to push your buttons - No worries mine did it to me on Saturday...And I also allowed it until it was pointed out to me by one of my peeps.
At some point in time this ride has got to slow down and then just stop however in the meantime, grab the bar in front of you and hold on.
Originally Posted By: Gardener
You certainly sound more serene, centered, and strong by the day.
My friend - If you only knew LOL...
I have an awful lot of help in that area...
I have one in my support system who just will not allow me to wallow anymore and somedays it takes all I have to put a smile on my face...
I am in a better place now then I was 6 months ago and looking forward to better place 6 months from now...
(((((Hugs)))))
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
It has been quite awhile since I updated my thread...
Changes?
No...I may have dragged my feet however I am still moving forward with the D...
A piece of me was still holding out with a glimmer of hope however that is long gone now...
My oldest is still living with his Dad however is now wanting to come home...I let him know we would discuss it when if is out of school and off of probation and not before...
My H continues to trickle-truth me to death and most of the lies have become truths recently...
He apparently has forgotten to even speak the truth and my boys are suffering for it...
It has been stated that he doesn't like coming to see little man and gets angry every time he does do it.
It has been stated that the OW wants my H to sue for custody of little man so that they can raise him together...
So instead of doing this the adult way, I have now hired a lawyer to protect myself and the boys...
I swear sometimes they are plotting to drive me mad however I refuse to sink to their level...
I will rise above all of it or die trying.
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
You will succeed. Your journey has been incredibly hard--and here you are--what's the chance of any of us here online or your IRL friends letting you go anywhere but up and forward?!
Serenity, I've been reading your thread for some time & you are definitely going to rise above this! I just wanted to give you my support, & let you know how much I admire you & how you've handled your sitch through incredibly difficult times.
I'm sorry for not being up to date on your thread but are you going to a C? Not a MC, but just counseling for yourself? I mention only b/c it may help you carry the weight, sometimes I find even just saying my thoughts out loud to someone helps. You deserve so much support on your journey, please know you have mine! Kudos to you for all your hard won progress, you are an incredibly strong and smart woman! You will succeed! (((hugs))) LFA
