This, right here, makes me want to hurl... I posted it in November of last year. SHEESH! Sure takes me a long as$ time to get it.
Originally Posted By: mindfull
For the first time in a year, I initiated some kind of R talk... He had called me (after he left to go back out of town for work), and said I looked like I felt just horrible (bad cold recently, hospitalized for heart issues - ok now) and hoped I felt better. I txt'd him back and said...
"I just miss my husband. I miss our closeness. I miss feeling like a part of you. I miss our intimacy. I miss being loved by you. I just miss you,k even when you are right here. The real problem with my heart is that a piece of it is missing. I love you."
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ICK !!!!!! that just really upsets me
Yup, I went through that last year, you go through the things you have said, txt'd, emailed, etc and then read it again and say to yourself, "How could I have said these things, how stupid was I?"
But that's just being hard on yourself and you don't need to be, you were invested in this person for a long time and now that you're finally detaching and seeing the situation as it really is instead of with rose colored glasses on, reality is actually visible now and grounding you and you have a better idea of how to act in these situations.
You're doing good, standing up for yourself and realizing your self-worth is tough when you haven't done it for what seems like forever, for what it's worth you're doing awesome, keep up the good work lady!
