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[Awoken]

Thanks again everyone. It's good to check in here and see your words of support.

I have a unusually busy 10 days ahead of me. I took on some extra work to help pay my growing bills. I just didn't expect all this to happen right now. Even with me telling her I wanted her out of the house, I expected it would take a couple of weeks before she did anything. I'm making plans to box up everything that she has left, and put it in the basement storage room for her to get. If she doesn't want it, I'll donate it all.

Footnote: I went to Target this afternoon to replace some household items. I turned an aisle, and literally ran into W with D17 and S14!. We were both speechless at first. It took me a few stunned seconds to register the situation. At first, I felt like we were all there shopping together, like normal. Then time shifted back to the present, and I remembered that we are not together anymore. She looked shocked, and I laughed a little bit. I don't quite know why. I shrugged with both my hands out wide, to express that I just didn't know what to do with the situation. I said "hello", and D17 and S14 gave me a quick hug. I felt bad for them because I could tell they were a little uncomfortable in front of their mom. W said "That's a nice new shirt". I said "thanks". Then told the kids I would see them later, turned around and left.

She was very tense; I think I was pretty calm other than being surprised by it. I'm in an odd place; at least odd to me. I'm deeply sad, but somehow I'm not missing HER right now. If anything, I'm very tired.