Time for darkness.... (thread number 3)ears open

[james217]

I'm glad pretty much everyone here is so patient and understanding with someone who is really trying his damndest.

I'm sorry for ever joining this board. I will no longer post here since I'm so rude awful terrible pretty much stupid crazy have no nuts and all the other kind words people have had for me.

I hardly remember posts on here unless I write down information to remember and what I put in my journals. But that's fine.

Sometimes I just stare of into space forgetting im on the phone about appointments or any of that. WAW did all of that cause I would forget.

maybe i'm schitzo maybe i'm biploar who freaking knows. All I know is that somewhere deep down inside i wish I was the normal loving person I used to be.

I'd honestly rather be dead than to live life like this anymore. I dont even recognize the person i've become anymore.

so thanks everyone for trying. maybe i'm just a lost cause and I should just grant WAW her freedom because I will probably never be normal again.