MC- what do you mean that neither one of you knew how to have a great marriage? I am questioning everything right now- I may be having my own MLC as a result of this. I am not sure if I believe in M either now. When a M fails..does it always mean a failure to communicate etc? or is that people's feelings just change? Are we really meant to be with one person our entire lives? With a 50% divorce rate..and a high rate of infidelity..it is really hard to believe that M fits into our existence. We believe that we need everything and we won't settle for anything less. If we don't have everything- we are unhappy and once we have everything..it is then that we feel we can be happy. But people who have everything aren't happy either. It is just crazy. Just rambling.
I went out to dinner last night with a couple of friends...and I know this is WAY too soon- but a nice man approached me. Really cute and very nice. He sat with us for awhile- he loves to travel, lived in Tokyo for awhile, athletic..Well he asked for my number so I gave it to him..and he already called. It was a nice distraction from all of this and it was nice to feel attractive again...instead of rejected.
I am no way ready to get myself into anything..but it is a good reminder that life really does go on.
My H texted me last night..."I am so sorry that I hurt you so much. You deserve so much better." Yes I do.
